marina ♡ recoverytwt

recovering for my health and happiness:)

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

anorexia did not give me control it controlled me. anorexia didnt not give me control it controlled me. anorexia did not give me control it controlled me

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

and it doesn’t help it’s making me look better too bc i was dealing with horrible inflammation BUT I NEED TO NOT RELAPSE AT THE FIRST SIGN OF MY BODY BEING HEALTHY LIKE TF

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

me when i’ve been struggling with some dumb fucking health shit histamine intolerance for the past few years without realizing and now i have to fight not relapsing bc eating disordered ass foods is the only thing making me feel good

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

i’m saying women’s health because these issues are dramatically worse right before my period. How the fuck as i supposed to focus on my mental health when my physical health is this shitty

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

I HATE WOMENS HEALTH AND HOW UNDERRESEARCHED IT IS I FEEL LIKE IM GOING CRAZY IVE HAD THESE SYMPTOMS WHEN I DONT EAT FOR A YEAR PLUS AND THERES NOTHING I CAN DO OTHER THAN EAT

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

i’m so fucking sick of recovery but there’s no other way out

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

Two years in recovery don’t know how to feel ab that tbh it’s just disappointing

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

why did i fucking wear a tight shirt wtf i regret it so bad

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

todays a rough one

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

here’s your reminder (also for myself) to listen to your body even if it seems like more food than you think you need, it’s asking for more for a reason

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

@avarecov tysm!!

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

i’m so done with this pls

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

walking to the dining hall rn literally shaking bc it’s so fucking cold and then i’ll eat and go outside and be able to handle it fine ITS SO WEIRD I FEEL LIKE IM PERMANENTLY DAMAGED

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

i don’t fucking get it i’m almost two years in recovery and ive been trying my best but i feel like my life is still ruled around food. rn im in college and it’s so fucking hard to ensure i get enough food in. and when im hungry i get shaky, headaches, and fucking freezing

[ᴘᴏᴛᴀᴛᴜᴍ @pot8um]

Full grown adults open-mouth coughing in public like preschoolers

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

he literally goes oh i know you’re not supposed to comment… and the. proceeds to say that . yk damn well bitch

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

tell me why my dad and his gf said i “look good” aka lost weight😍😍😍

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

i deserve not to go to bed hungryyyy

[nora ★ @w88less]

eating disorders are fucked up why do i want to kill myself because i ate a sandwich

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

and i feel so annoying for feeling like this bc it shouldn’t be triggering at all

[marina ♡ recoverytwt @smooth1ebowl]

i keep pushing myself to watch heartstopper even though it’s triggering me😐😐