At the end of the day so many confusingly painful things can be explained by the fact that I think we all just want to believe that we mean something to the people in our lives
Sending compassion to those who struggle to believe they’re lovable. That feeling often comes from not having support when you needed it most. I hope you find ways to hold those messages away and love every part of you, but especially the parts who felt they didn’t belong.
Repentance is not verbal only. It is always demonstrated consistently in a life over time. And true repentance is a process that requires time and more time to be made evident.
Time doesn’t heal all wounds. There are wounds that turn a persons world upside down and that person is adapting to that change for the rest of their lives. Yes, they need time. They also need compassion, respect, and understanding so they are heard and can find peace.
To understand the life of an abuse survivor, is to understand how hard they work to not say or do something that could provoke an unknown response from those around them, while healing from a multitude of things that should have never been said or done to them.
Please don't spend your time trying to make sense to people who keep hurting you. Their behavior doesn't make sense. Their lack of remorse doesn't make sense. Their assumption that they can treat you poorly & still have a permanent place in your life, does not make sense.
To see a person who supposedly cares about you defend someone who has traumatized you is crazy-making. It’s normalizing toxic behavior while telling the hurt person their pain isn’t real. You’re not crazy. You’re trying to heal among crazy-makers.
Why people have a hard time letting go when others keep hurting them:
-They genuinely care about them.
-They think they can help them heal.
-The mistreatment is familiar.
-They fear being alone.
You’ll never regret choosing yourself at peace than living in someone else’s chaos
The more you heal, the less willing you are to tolerate people whose behavior leaves you second-guessing yourself. “What did I do to deserve that?” is replaced with clarity and peace.
There is power in sitting quietly with a person in deep pain. Their heart and mind is already heavy. When someone listens to hear, it allows the hurt person to experience connection rather than advice that often feels dismissive and out of reach.
@JayMallow3 I think it’s some level of chosen ignorance too. If what we say about how the church hurt us is real then they would need to do some serious work of their own. And that is hard.
You have no idea how hard someone tried before walking away. You have no idea what they would’ve given had their hope had been met. You have no idea the grief that is relentlessly pushing memories to the surface. Please be kind this holiday season. It’s a rough time of year.