no its ok i just need to do literally everything after work. i just need to do literally everything but first i have to stand around in this building for 9hrs doing jack fucking shit
not having a dog but knowing people who have dogs is great cause i play with them and rile them up and then go "ok your problem now" and i get to leave
i think i felt like this for years and years, and i spent months this year stewing on what i could do to make positive changes in my life but im doing it now
btw if youre thrashing around screaming that something in your life needs to change and you cant keep going on like this, you'll do it. eventually you'll figure out what needs to change and you will do it