Heard shout out playing from my neighbor's speaker, and i just wanna shoot myself because I'll never get to experience a shout out en-core in this lifetime :))
🐈 so… the reason i actually went live today is…the t-shirt i wore yesterday seemed to make some people uncomfortable, and i genuinely didn’t know. i thought it was just a regular t-shirt, but apparently it’s related to a movie that many people in Kazakhstan find very offensive. i heard it’s a black comedy that portrays them in a bad way. yes, the t-shirt shirt with holes in it. i didn’t know about it yesterday, but after seeing that some people were uncomfortable because of it, i’d like to apologize first. i threw the shirt away immediately. even if i didn’t know, if it made people uncomfortable, it’s still my mistake, so i’m sorry. i got rid of the shirt right away.
🐈 actually, i wanted to apologize first thing this morning, before the concert. but when i checked the time in Kazakhstan, it was still the middle of the night. so i thought it’d be better to go live when people there would actually be awake to see it. i think it’s around 8 or 9 a.m. there now. so as soon as i got back, i started this live. i’m sorry. i’m sincerely sorry, and i’ll reflect on this.
🐈 i’ll delete the TikTok too. also… i found out that the person who created the dance is also from Kazakhstan. the choreographer. i truly had no idea. i’m sorry. i really didn’t know. i’ll be more careful from now on.
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Losing my mind because out of everything he could’ve said, he chose “You had it hard too.”
Not “I worked hard.”
Not “I’m proud of myself.”
Not even “Thank you for waiting.”
He acknowledged the people who “still hold him with love”.
That line feels so small, but it carries so much weight. It’s him recognizing that while he was living through everything behind the scenes, fans were also navigating the uncertainty, the waiting, the endless speculation, and the emotions that came with supporting him through it all.
I hope the world is kinder to you, @h_evva_n, and I hope you know we’ll be here as you become everything you want to be.
ot7 engenes watching the documentary with hearts full of pride and love for heeseung, while carrying the bittersweet ache of knowing he had to endure so much mentally and emotionally for something he'd been looking forward to for so long 💔
the way engenes are trying to rewrite heeseung’s personality is so weird 😭 he was literally one of the funniest and most energetic members in every group content. what were you all watching before march 10th?