( Jake held many feelings for Sean that were conflicting to say the least、keeping the strings on his heart tied together and keeping him from finding any reason at times.
His best friend whom he had adored、now chasing after a figure that likely had no reason to look back.
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[ He envied everything Sean had. It was selfish— to envy the person that was the direct reason he was even alive. It was hard to not envy Sean though. People cared unconditionally about him, and wanted to save him.
No one would come saving them. They had to dig their own grave
That was all that was necessary、still somehow wishing to retain a distance even if his mind had paved the idea otherwise. )
if only getting out of this mess was that easy. its now just following all of us、having already taken someone from us ... ugh.
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no need for you to know for now、yeah?
( snickering mostly to himself、breathing evening with the familiarity. always so reliable、always so comforting. )
i thought i knew the cold well、honestly. turns out i wasn't whatsoever.
Uhuh?
( snrk— lightly bumping him with his shoulder before he lays his head back down. a playful air to his actions. )
I dislike the cold a lot. I'm not built for it.
totally sophisticated and not ..
( cutting himself off as he blinked a few times、the corners of his lips tugged upwards to form a soft grin. )
not too bad of a nap then. winter can be pretty evil sometimes、after all.
Sure. My sophisticated taste is to your liking.
( a little tease, followed by his laughter. his own hands rubbing together to create a little warmth. )
I'll probably fall asleep like this.