jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode

27, he/him, mainly ortho/res ed idk what kind. MDNI except with harm reduction posts 🪩
Hbmi: 38.1
L: 15.4
S: 33
C: 23
G: 21.3
new to twitter, not ed spaces

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Pinning until I figure out if I'm recovering or not.

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

@camgirlvomit I will! Ty <3 working on maintaining/recovery now

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

I didn't recover but I'm trying to now. I am not even a low healthy weight but it's making me dysphoric bc being small feels feminine im in hell

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

More active on Instagram @ lypsofacto

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Okay i didnt kill him I thought i did but he is too annoying for that to stick

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

I've been doing parts work in therapy and I did a late abortion on my inner child and now I no longer have travel anxiety it's fucking crazy I love therapy

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

☁️💫💚💫☁️

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Gas station assthetic

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Man dinner

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Also no i dont enjoy ortho I ate too much fiber and was on the toilet all yesterday so yeah the results are worthless the journey is the addiction womp womp I never learn

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Ideally I would stay bmi 24ish forever but have to starve to stay there and thats like actually so stupid I need to recover what am i doing

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Why am I getting dysphoria from feeling too thin at bmi 23 like yeah I want to be beefy but seriously this seems soon to be feeling fragile I hate it I need to bulk but I hate food so much right now 🫩

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Self esteem and body dysmorphia really dont even come into play for me I feel so weird not caring how I look at all but being so dedicated to the process it feels so pointless. None of my clothes fit and im pissed I hate getting new clothes waste ofnmoney

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Recent hauls cuz im a fuggin dumbshit

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

*boofs my adhd meds bc i have a sensitive stomach and the heart of a hero*

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Im still fucked im sorry im sorry im sorry im s

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

Im a lot more active on Insta rn, does anyone wanna be moots? Im lypsofacto (L not i) on there

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

I feel like the boxer band really fucked me up today? Like yes I knew i lost weight but I was the same size I thought. Ive been fitting all the same clothes? I look the same? Except ih this pair of boxers specifically.

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

If this doesn't finish killing the covid and give me the strength to clean idi what will

[jayce 🌊 fatgot 🪩 energysavingmode @socalnocal]

I didn't recover when I disappeared I just disappeared