i feel useless. i wish i could lay down and let someone else take care of me. to control my needs, to make sure i'm content. i'm so tired. i want to stop being cold, hungry, and exhausted all the time. i want a hug. i want much but i know i can't get it.
being in your 20s is realizing you've been passively suicidal your whole life and never expected to survive for this long but now you have to actively participate in your own life and bc you've spent all your life wanting to die you have no idea how to actually live
i can’t believe halloween is on a saturday for the last time until 2037 but i’m sitting inside rotting away because i have no friends and no plans I AM WASTING MY YOUTH