( he nods )
“ zoe , i'm sorry for being such a jerk , i shouldn't have said all those rude things to you , insults & all , even if i am hurt & trying to protect myself that's not a good excuse , obviously i'd change it up when apologizing to juni but was that okay .ᐣ ”
“ you're not stupid, juni. ”
her gaze falling on the other girl.
“ that was his intention, getting under your skin. deep down i know you know we care about you. a lot.”
yes. i do. if it's okay, that could be cool. ” playing off as she handed the drummer her plate. “ six ? in a few years he's gonna be the newest camp rock camper. ”
“ i'm also sorry to hear that. glad you don't have to be lonely anymore. ”
just for a second, she lost track of time ——— staring at the other girl for a little too long ; almost forgetting to eat the pancake laying on her plate.
&&.
i'm sorry to hear that . my parents have the craziest work schedules ever, so it was pretty lonely . . . and i'm over a decade older . . .
( broke eye contact just to look down at the plate, cut the pancake and catch it with the &&
deeply entertained by the scene playing in front of her, corner of her mouth curled up in a half — smile, zoe almost let the question go unnoticed, until realization hit her. the light pink on her cheeks becoming a darker shade.
“ i— i &&.
through. ”
a fainted smile offered, probably the first one directed at him.
“ you just need to want to find yourself again. and bad memories ? they could always be replaced with good ones. ”
“ it's * not pity. ”
zoe was usually the most empathetic she could be, no matter the person nor their ‘crimes’.
“ it's good to get things out of your chest once in a while . . . we lost ourselves sometimes, it's a thing we all go &&.
brings up bad memories at the same time , i just , sorry i don't know why i'm spilling to you now , i don't wanna be a burden ”
( cue a nervous chuckle , he hated being vulnerable he was trying to lighten the mood somehow )
i'd actually appreciate that , while I've apologized before , i'm not the best at it , that skill has kinda not been used since the whole ' i don't feel anything ' persona was put on
hey i may be a jerk but i mind my business
if everyone leaves , what's the point of letting them get close in the first place .ᐣ it's just better to be alone
. . . i know , i will i just , i want to let things calm down a bit , especially after the fight , i need to be calm and in the right head space before i try to approach her again