They also imagine about a snow leopard or rather... Their friend that They miss. They don't really remember well in Their 'Monster' form. Their memory are blurry, mixing the past, present, and future tigether. It's hard for Them to remember specific detail (^-^)
Lore:
After the massacre that Sol did and They lost control of themselves, They got captured and thrown in the darkness for years, its all dark and void. What can Sol do in there? using Their imagination. Imagining that They lay on something than nothing.