★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt

♡₊˚ ED/SHtwt ★ Minor‹3 ★ -14 dni ★ tics ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ Solaris #edtwt/#shtwt intro
♡₊˚ he/him+xenos — mLm aroace spec
✧˖°ʚ🍓ɞ 14 [- 14 dni]
୨୧⎯ ୨୧ ↺/♡ to b moots‹3

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

Trauma is not a sport don't compete

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

How do I make friends here like
Everyone has their own friend group

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

Friendly reminder that parents may know about ur sh but not care
My mother, upon seeing my scars, said the following
“if you was to kys u gotta cut this way not that way”
“if you wana kill urself just do it”
“stop cutting you are going to make me look bad.”
Along with more bs‼️

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

Listening to Lana Del Rey while scrolling through shtwt and cutting is surreal

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

★ — this is overall a reminder that being delusional is NOT just liking a man yk is out of yr league, and being paranoid is NOT just wanting somebody with you. These things are debilitating and horrible.

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

★ — Hearing/Seeing/Feeling things
I experience auditory, visual, and physical hallucinations, I can not trust myself, I can't tell the reality between fiction.

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

★ — Cars
The concept of cars terrify me, I watch too many car crash videos that I physically feel ill getting in cars.

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

★ — Storms
I was raised to think every storm was the end of the world, so now, even if they skys grey, I have a full blown meltdown, it's not pretty

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

★ — MLP Infections [sue me. I'm act delusional not aesthetic I like a man “delusional”.]
I'll often have a panic attack if my stomach hurts because what if those infections are real?

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

★ — Waking Up, Going To Sleep
I do not leave my bed past 11pm, I do not care if I need to piss like no tomorrow, I held it in foster care I can hold it now. I do not leave my bed until 7am, it's too dark, I don't know what's watching me

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

★ — Closet Door
That shit HAS to be closed or I am not sleeping. I do not know what's in there, and I don't mean “mommy there's a monster” I mean “if I look away from this door those mlp infections vines are going to kill me/there is a killer in there” kinda delusional/paranoia

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

★ — Closing The Blinds
They HAVE to be closed facing upwards, I refuse to have them down. What if someone watching me? What if there's a monster looking down, what if there's a werewolf[this was way worse back in Oklahoma, we had a single story and I slept by the window]

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

“I'm not paranoid, I'm not delusional”
🧵About my delusions/paranoia ‹3

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

I can NOT be big AND have bad skin..

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

Def what my irls eat [they are all so skinny how.]

[jojo 💿 @dailyfaminedevl]

People on edtwt will think that is what non disordered people eat on a daily

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

Not the way my gpa came up to me and asked “did you do anything today other than eat?” I'm going to kms

Edtwt

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

“i cannot imagine screaming like that because of an earthquake...”
Mf they are elementary students and the roof was falling on top of them wtf did you expect

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

I need to loose weight like, tomorrow. I have a week till my classes swim segment happens, I refuse to be fat in front of people

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

Currently watching random mukbangs so I get grosses out and don't want to eat anymore

[★ — Solaris ୨୧ shedtwt @solarberry]

How much weight do you guys think I gotta loose to get a thigh gap/thinner legs?