、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝.

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⠀it ⠀⠀was ⠀⠀more ⠀⠀a ⠀⠀𝓂𝘪𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘦 ⠀⠀៸
⠀in ⠀⠀𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙠𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨 ⠀⠀& ⠀⠀𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙩𝙝 ⠀⠀; ⠀⠀i ⠀⠀showed ⠀⠀you ⠀⠀a ⠀⠀𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 ⠀⠀like ⠀⠀a ⠀⠀cluttered ⠀⠀garage.
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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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i ⠀am ⠀𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘥 ⠀by ⠀breaking ⠀down.
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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀face down in her pillow, wrapped in a weighted blanket and several blankets. she must cocoon, now. tomorrow, she will flutter around the emergency department. * 💤

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀“ i don’t——— it’s 𝒽ard for me to cry in front of people, ” admitted with a heavy sigh from the chest, as if she was trying to physically expel the sadness. “ but she was so 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨, and——— i just, 𝑔od … ”

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀with emphasis on the 𝘢𝘭𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵; none were immune to the effects of their career, nor the toll that it took on them during moments like these. most grew jaded from the horror, relying on cynicism as a protective barrier.

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[‍ ‍ ‍✱ ᅠ ᅠᅠ ᅠ ᴛʜᴇ𝙿𝙰𝚁𝙰𝘔͟𝘌͟𝘋͟𝘐͟𝘊͟ ‍ … @roadscre]

durable and almost impenetrable ——— that how any medical worker looked at first sight and yet all of them are people too , with own traumas and feelings … how unpredictable life is and they daily play with it , fight the death but sometimes all the
‹ c͟o͟n͟t͟ . ›

[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀still, she will allow herself to indulge this moment of respite as much as she can. even if the waves will cast her out again.

palm brushing at her wet cheeks, she tries not to think about pulling her uncomfortable skin off.

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀… in her throat, spilling out of her mouth before she even notices that her thoughts have been made audible.

but mel nods, prim and compliant, because she always does. “ yeah——— yes ! you’re right. i’m sorry. ”

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀… as a reminder to keep quiet.

it feels 𝒸ompulsive, how words have a way of lurching from between her lips in a steady stream that often leads nowhere at all. the words build pressure in her chest before they erupt …

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀another beautiful day of botching interactions with her coworkers——— and she wishes that thought was sarcastic. it really is a gorgeous day, something that she almost goes to comment on, until the raise of her finger serves …

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[𝐒𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐎𝐒, 𝐌𝐃 @SANTOSTRlNITY]

mel is no good at picking up hints both a blessing and curse depending when it strikes, trinity thinks. today words seem to leave mel’s mouth at the same rate an accidental lean on a keyboard might, quick and persistent.

[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀reading an article on gender differences in the social behaviours between boys and girls with autism after my shift tonight. * ( ◠‿◠ )

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀“ we can offer you non—opioid pain medication. it is possible that you strained it while you were walking. alternatively, if you want more support, then i could wrap or splint it. but 𝘶𝘮——— no scripts required, fortunately. ”

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀at the centre of her complex, she is this: soft tissue swathed around her beating organ, available to prod at from between the slits of her ribcage. sharp things like 𝒽im have a habit of pricking the sensitive parts of herself.

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[ ݁‍    𝑨𝗟𝗟𝗘𝗬 𝗖𝗔𝗧. @TRUTINOR]

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any  street  rat  worth  their  salt  knows  a  trip  to  the  ER  and  a  mouthful  of  bullshit  can  get  them  a  quick  fix  ——  the  risk  being  minimal  depending  on  state  laws  and  their  stance  on  involuntary  rehabilitation.  zep  has  never  done this —
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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀after a moment, she reaches out to lightly press over the skin with sterile blue gloves, checking for muscle tenderness. as she concluded before, nothing atypical. she chews on the inside of her cheek.

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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💬: You can also take a look at the clothes I’m donating as well, if you’d like to. There are some sweaters from college that I don’t wear anymore in there.

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[、 𝓈𝙚𝙚 ◌ 𝓉𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. @solflevits]

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⠀⠀the confirmation is a wave of relief as soon as she reads it. the tension in her shoulders relaxes a touch as she leans into her break room seat.

💬: I don’t think that you’re stinky !!! Sorry
💬: And no problem. 🙂

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[𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐚𝐧. 🩸 @putupgloves]

( the appearance of a text bubble showing up, vanishing, showing back up again as he debates his own reply back and forth. )

📲: i don’t mind coming along. dw about getting me anything though. unless ur saying i’m stinky. 🙁

( he’s touched. a smile on his face that he burrows—