@JKurkine Do you ever apply this saying to yourself? Do you ever consider caring about me--a person who loaned you a large sum of money--by making an effort to repay it? Or do you intend to spend the rest of your life hiding from your debt to me behind the Finnish system that protects you?
One thing that still catches me, in a good way, is watching my wife.
I am autistic.
That is not a label I wear for drama; it’s the basic wiring. Social skills never arrived as instinct.
Even now, after studying psychology and practising for years, I’m not suddenly fluent in the unspoken language most people swim through without thinking. I’m better than I was twenty years ago, yes, but “better” is not the same as “easy,” and it sure as hell isn’t the same as “natural.”
She is different.
She is empathetic in the way that matters, not the loud, advertising kind, but the quiet, precise kind that shows up when someone’s tired, when a child’s about to crack, when a relative needs help without having to beg for it. She notices what people mean before they manage to say it properly.
She gives warmth without turning it into a performance. Watching her do that, with family, with friends, with strangers who drift into her orbit, is like seeing a skill executed cleanly and without effort. It makes me proud, and not in some public, flag-waving way, but in the private way that actually counts.
It is also a Chinese-Singaporean family, which means the dynamics aren’t the ones I grew up with.
Different rhythms, different expectations, different rules about respect, duty, and care. I can see the structure of it, and I can see how she moves within it — not by forcing it, not by resisting it, but by understanding it. She navigates that world with a kind of humane intelligence I still have to work at, step by step, like a man reading a map in the rain.
So yes, I enjoy watching my wife.
I don’t mean it sentimentally. I mean it the way you admire a person who is good, in a concrete, practical, daily sense, at something that keeps families together and keeps life from turning into a cold, stupid mess.
I see her empathy in motion, and I’m grateful for it, and I’m proud of her for it, and I love her.
@mattvanswol Glad you got some positive vibes back. I appreciate you too. Sent you a DM. I'm in Black Mountain, with solid pickup truck, ready for work.
@ImBreckWorsham@POTUS Well said. To me the lesson is obvious: trust ourselves, We the People, NOT politicians. WE need to take back our country from the beast system that hijacked it long ago.
I resonate. I've been you, so to speak. I've concluded I have complex PTSD. I think a lot of us who have fighting this war out whole lives do.
I'm desperate/determined to create a breakthrough in my own consciousness so I can be fully alive, fully functional, fully ME again. Gonna do a MAPS style MDMA healing session soon (you can look that up if curious). I trust the breakthrough will happen.
Best wishes, brother 🙏🏼
@catturd2 Your buddy Kash covers for traitors. Kash or drained swamp? You can't have both. If you run over for the likes of Kash YOU are a traitor and a phoney.
@FBIDirectorKash You're a self-promoting shill. Grow some balls and integrity and go after Charlie's real killers and justice for the Epstein victims. Until then STFU and quit doing coke.