fucking poser has the audacity to have a carrot in their name while dissing veggies #veggietwt its ride or die for this spinach shit ur abt to have some herbies (short for herbivores just using slang) knocking on your fucking door dont play
(hearing a loud truck outside) they must be towing my shit. My shit is probably getting towed right now. (pain in my neck) I'm getting killed for being gay. (hungry) I'm fat. (thinking about sex) don't want that
And why I had to cover my mouth in class because I would have constant violent intrusive thoughts about my classmates and if I didn't cover my mouth then I would speak them out loud without realising lol
spoke to my therapist about it and he said it sounds like OCD. spent the rest of the session paranoid that I had lied to him and the only reason he said it sounds like I have OCD is because I tricked him into doing it haha lol
idk if it is OCD because i cant know what an obsession or compulsion actually feels like. but if I have looping thoughts about X, then i feel i need to do Y, and if I try to resist it then it feels like there's bugs under my skin. if I do Y i feel better until X thoughts return
if its true then in retrospect it makes so much sense why i used to feel like if i didnt thank [the vague concept of a traffic light controlling Entity] for making a light green as i approached it, then it would punish me by making every traffic light turn red before me forever
claude go back and change how I’ve lived my life. right my wrongs, fix my mistakes, and heal the people I’ve hurt. that I might wake up tomorrow and feel the sun on my face. make no mistakes.