some1alive

i can only hear myself here .

[some1alive @some1alive4]

May I never forget this day and this feeling, I rly have no idea what my life would look like without her in my life, I'm so happy that u exist, u have always healed things that wasn't ur fault and u fixed "everyone" problems in my life. I love u so much I wish I never lose u ♥️

[some1alive @some1alive4]

Wow, I really just signed my first job offer as an electrical engineer, dreams come true. I can't believe it, but I'm working in Riyadh which is a bit scary, but hey what are we if we never tried?

[some1alive @some1alive4]

If I can breathe I cab think If I can think I can WIN

[some1alive @some1alive4]

If I can breathe I can think if I can think I can WIN! Repeat thousands times until you get it

[some1alive @some1alive4]

But not today, they gifted me a new iPhone 17 pro max, and since then I saw them differently, I felt seen and felt, I'm so thankful for that, I feel new feelings towards them. It was never about the phone it was about my feelings now I can help them without questioning myself ♥️

[some1alive @some1alive4]

They just keep gifting everyone else but there children, I was jealous I admit it, they treated everyone one gently but not us

[some1alive @some1alive4]

I always felt that I hated my family deep down, they keep overwhelming me with work and tasks forever and lately I felt it was too much I couldn't stand to sit or look at them, I asked them to bring me a gift for my graduation and they ignored me as always, and I hated more

[some1alive @some1alive4]

For once, I'm really optimistic about my future, I don't know how I managed this but I am quite and I love this I hope I keep it up

[some1alive @some1alive4]

Thank me for believing in me thank me for taking no days off thank me for sacrificing fun time, vacation and happiness just to boost my grades, what A journey huh? Let this day be the last day I walk here wish you a new good journey where you can find urself, true self

[some1alive @some1alive4]

This might be a boring picture that I just took, bit this is actually me walking in the college for the last time, this sidewalk and street have seen so many versions of me

[some1alive @some1alive4]

I would like to take this moment to thank me for never giving up and for keep going forward and up despite all the pain and loneliness I have ever felt I walked above my sadness and kept on getting the best grades, here I am top 1 student on my batch for real than you Omar.

[some1alive @some1alive4]

Im only gonna live once why let something like identity creates fears and let you be shy ? Why not seeing the bilions aspect of life other than this?

[some1alive @some1alive4]

I have never experienced such a lost feeling like this, i feel like idk myself anymore idk what I'm doing and why I'm doing, I have problems with my identity can find myself feels like a mess, after all these years thinking I got it all figured out I wasn't right

[some1alive @some1alive4]

Bc i want to feel young again i want to try new things i want to be a teenager once and live like I one i feel like this is where my new me should start I have to change I have to say hello YEAH to everything i want to experience as much as possible

[some1alive @some1alive4]

I'm just a messed up complex person, I don't even understand myself why I was sad?

[some1alive @some1alive4]

I want a hug

[some1alive @some1alive4]

I just need a hug, long hug, the kinda of hug that makes me feel vulnerable and not ashamed of myself, I need to feel like a child, not caring about judgements just dive in that hug like a 4 years child who haven't seen a parent for a long time

[some1alive @some1alive4]

Sick world we live in m, I want to be hugged I want to feel loved I don't want to be alone I'm sick of that emptiness, loneliness and unseen. This world sucks the hill out of a man and asks for more until he is drained out. Yet nothing is given for him