victoria °•*

lbmi 16.2, cbmi 16.6 | mia | lowkey trying to recover but im def not all in

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

@carmilla_doll SAMEEE I feel like I'm just lucky enough to have good bone structure cause my thighs are NOT thin!! It's so annoying omfg

[℮ @carmilla_doll]

thigh gap but disgustingly obese thighs

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

I feel so bad cause he's so sweet and nice but I'm just traumatized and I have a disorganized attachment style which makes everything horrible. I'm anxious like 24/7 and it makes me so nauseous and idk what to do or how to be a normal person

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

I'm fighting for my life with recovery but I've started hanging out with this guy and omfg 😭😭😭 I genuinely don't think love is for me guys!! I've been losing my appetite and today I literally threw up cause my trust issues are so bad and lit ANYTHING makes me spiral

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

I've been so happy for the last few days and even though hope feels dangerous, I really really hope that this'll last and that it's like a new chapter of my life

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

@spitandtears111

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

Recovery is not going good cause I've realized that I've just switched to a new form of purging... I've been reaching 20k steps regularly and my knee's gotten injured from it I'm pretty sure. Idk what to do

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

I made rasp and white choc cookies for my family and I had one which made me PANIC so I ran to the toilet and purged it. Now I've ruined this entire batch of cookies for myself cause whenever I'll see them/eat them, I'll just think about how I was fighting in the bathrom

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

@rosieskcals7 I'm so proud of you for managing to use less lax!! 🫶🫶

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

"Recovery" except I still can't bring myself to eat more than 1200 and I get like 15k steps in every single day cause I just end up pacing around all day from stress

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

I'm lowkey in my semi recovery era and one of my disordered friends keeps fucking triggering me and talking about how he's throwing away food or how he's exercising all the time and I'm gonna crash the fuck out 😜😜😜

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

I'm pretty sure I have arfid cause cutting out entire food groups cause you believe that they'll make you sick or that there's something unclean or unholy about them can't be normal..right?

[Mimi @NeoNotNox]

Why this post is wrong backed with Science and sites because we all deserve peace of mind 🧵🪡 (No pictures sorry!)

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

Met two five year old girls today and talked with them for a bit on the way home and they called me skinny and also pretty a bit later I'm so happyyy

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

Going to the dentist pray for me!!! I've started trying to purge less but I'm still scared that they're gonna notice

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

Yayy I visited my new school today and it was amazingggg I'm not sure if I'm gonna switch yet or not, but I'm feeling super stuck rn in life and I think it could be good for me

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

@whwh1263861 @rosieskcals7 Where you the one who weighed out the food

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

Just shared a bottle of wine with my best friend and I feel whole again

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

When he ghosts me but I have avoidant attachment anyways

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

Om jag behöver vänta tills nästa år för att söka tsm med alla 10or kommer jag typ bara droppa ut för asså nej

[victoria °•* @somnium7777]

Kommer crash out om jag inte får byta gymnasie på nått jävla vänster. Asså jag går i tvåan o alla skolor jag vill komma in på är fucking fyllda så det är inte sannolikt men jag hoppas hoppas hoppas