wow. the long house in perfect form— the doe-eyed faux concern, the “i just wanted to give you an opportunity", the upspeak
worth noting the interviewer’s physiognomy, it’s the "just be a decent fucking human" evil incarnate that you’ll see when the pyre is lit beneath you
@sighswoon thanks for makin my night lady 🩵 you inspire me, and i *just* gifted practices in apparition to another close friend to fuel ~her~ inspiration
for my close friend’s birthday, i wrote her a 250 word poem where each sentence began with her name
i got up on her couch, barefoot tom-cruise-style, and rapped it at her. she giggled with delight, and hugged me with tears in her eyes
some people are yours, and some will never be
Made a new friend, our daughters are the same age, I loved her company. She was going through something hard, so I handwrote her 1,000 words of original poetry/fiction, because that's how I show love...I'm a deeply creative person. She said she didn't have time to read it, called it weird, and didn't even take it. My soul left my body, reentered my body just to die again, and am now watching my own embarrassment from a small cloud above my house. Adult female friendship in your 30s is a horror movie and I keep volunteering to be the first victim.
there are undoubtedly people in my life who wouldn’t have welcomed this gift in its quirkiness and vulnerability. writing this poem brought me so much joy that i recited it for a month, and now have it memorized. one is incredibly lucky when you click with someone in this way, it’s rare, and that’s my point
@Philosophi_Cat we also live apart, so it was a belated birthday gift, just a few days ago, as i’m staying with her now :’) highly recommend the barefoot couch performance (hairbrush microphone included)
If I'm honest this has been a hard season for me lately. I've been struggling with trusting God's timing. I was reminded when reading Psalm 37 today that I am to be still before Yahweh and wait patiently. That Yahweh is good to those who wait for him and seek him, and it is good to wait quietly for God’s salvation (Lam. 3:25–26). This quiet waiting involves hoping in God’s word while the soul waits more intensely than watchmen awaiting morning (Psalm 130:5–6).
I was reminded that prior to preaching to thousands, for a season Peter went back to fishing after thinking he failed Jesus. That Paul sat in prison cells, Lazarus lay in a tomb, Jonah prayed in the belly of a fish, Hannah wept on the steps of the tabernacle, Joseph was locked in the captivity, and Moses stood in the fields of Median herding sheep. All before God made moves in his timing.
Times of waiting, while hard, remind us of the confidence we should have in God’s timing and character. When direction seems slow in coming, we're called to wait for it, assured it will come when the time is ready (Hab. 2:3). Yahweh himself waits to be gracious and show mercy, and those who wait for him are blessed, for he is a God of justice (Isa. 30:18). Rather than taking matters into their own hands, like I often am tempted to do, we are instructed not to repay evil but to wait for the Lord, who will deliver us (Prov 20:22).
Hoping for what is unseen involves waiting with patience (Romans 8:25), and through the Spirit and faith, believers eagerly wait for the hope of righteousness (Galatians 5:5). Waiting involves expectancy and hope regarding events and contingencies still in the future, it's the outworking of a spiritual posture directed at trusting God’s promises and timing rather than our own understanding.
Knowing all of this, writing here on X doesn't make my season of needing to wait any easier, but the consistent, inspired, inerrant testimony of scripture nonetheless gives me something solid to trust in. I am fickle, impatient, and finite. God is trustworthy, forbearing, and infinite. And his timing is right even if I don't know how or when things will happen.