[closed]
hi everyone,
before closing this account, i just wanted to say a proper goodbye.
this space and fandom once brought me so much happiness, but now, i can’t see it the same way. these past few days have been exhausting. everything feels heavy, overwhelming, and utterly heartbreaking. before anything else, i’m a human and a woman first, before i’m a fan. and as a woman, i’m grieving. i’m mourning her. i’m furious that i can’t put my feelings into words. it’s beyond disappointing. he was once a part of my youth, but seeing how things have unfolded is devastating. a life was lost. i truly despise the piranhas, the people behind that company, but most of all, the person he turned out to be.
i hope the girl rest in peace and get the apology she deserved. because no one should have gone through what she did. no one. i hope everyone who effected by his actions gets the justice and the apology they deserved. most importantly i hope he takes full responsibility, though no apology and anything will ever be enough.
this entire situation has been traumatizing, and i don’t think i’ll ever be able to look at things the same way again. not the dramas, not the industry, not even the people i once admired. it’s terrifying how easily things can shatter, how quickly someone you believed in can become someone you never imagined.
that being said, not everything about this experience was bad. if there’s one thing i’ll take with me, it’s the friendships i made here. the late-night conversations, the chaotic fangirling, the way we supported each other for years. it all meant something to me, and i’m truly thankful for that. i won’t erase the good memories we created together here.
before i go, i want to apologize if i ever said or did anything hurtful while being in this fandom. looking back, i know i was just doing what i thought was right at the time, but if my words or actions ever caused harm, i truly regret it. emotions always ran high here, but the last thing i’d ever want was to hurt anyone.
also, thank you to everyone who checked up on me. it truly means a lot. i know this situation has been a mess, and everyone is processing it in their own way. to those blaming ex-fans, please stop crucifying people who once supported him but have now chosen to walk away. no one saw this coming. we all believed in someone who turned out to be different. that’s not our fault. the only person to blame here is him. fans didn’t cause this-we were supporting someone we thought was worth it. let people process this in their own way without judgment.
at the end of the day, we don’t truly know someone’s personal life, but we do know that our own peace matters. and i refuse to let this take up any more of my energy.
i will erase him from my life and move on.
thank you all for the memories, the laughs, and the friendships. i sincerely hope each of you all take care of yourselves and find peace.
signing off.
[closed]
hi everyone,
before closing this account, i just wanted to say a proper goodbye.
this space and fandom once brought me so much happiness, but now, i can’t see it the same way. these past few days have been exhausting. everything feels heavy, overwhelming, and utterly heartbreaking. before anything else, i’m a human and a woman first, before i’m a fan. and as a woman, i’m grieving. i’m mourning her. i’m furious that i can’t put my feelings into words. it’s beyond disappointing. he was once a part of my youth, but seeing how things have unfolded is devastating. a life was lost. i truly despise the piranhas, the people behind that company, but most of all, the person he turned out to be.
i hope the girl rest in peace and get the apology she deserved. because no one should have gone through what she did. no one. i hope everyone who effected by his actions gets the justice and the apology they deserved. most importantly i hope he takes full responsibility, though no apology and anything will ever be enough.
this entire situation has been traumatizing, and i don’t think i’ll ever be able to look at things the same way again. not the dramas, not the industry, not even the people i once admired. it’s terrifying how easily things can shatter, how quickly someone you believed in can become someone you never imagined.
that being said, not everything about this experience was bad. if there’s one thing i’ll take with me, it’s the friendships i made here. the late-night conversations, the chaotic fangirling, the way we supported each other for years. it all meant something to me, and i’m truly thankful for that. i won’t erase the good memories we created together here.
before i go, i want to apologize if i ever said or did anything hurtful while being in this fandom. looking back, i know i was just doing what i thought was right at the time, but if my words or actions ever caused harm, i truly regret it. emotions always ran high here, but the last thing i’d ever want was to hurt anyone.
also, thank you to everyone who checked up on me. it truly means a lot. i know this situation has been a mess, and everyone is processing it in their own way. to those blaming ex-fans, please stop crucifying people who once supported him but have now chosen to walk away. no one saw this coming. we all believed in someone who turned out to be different. that’s not our fault. the only person to blame here is him. fans didn’t cause this-we were supporting someone we thought was worth it. let people process this in their own way without judgment.
at the end of the day, we don’t truly know someone’s personal life, but we do know that our own peace matters. and i refuse to let this take up any more of my energy.
i will erase him from my life and move on.
thank you all for the memories, the laughs, and the friendships. i sincerely hope each of you all take care of yourselves and find peace.
signing off.
thank you so much for your kindness and understanding, everyone! i truly mean every word i’ve said, and i no longer have the energy to engage with any negativity. at this point, my peace matters more than anything. please take care of yourselves and find happiness in the things that truly bring you joy. i might still be on this app, but not in this space, and definitely not for him. wishing you all the best—peace and love, goodbye ~