soph

she/her | @drone_fps♥️

[Soze Faizon Blanco @TheHumanDurag]

They stop carding you once the light has left your eyes.

[🕐HOURLY🕑 shitpost @hourly_shitpost]

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[drone @drone_fps]

Big long tweet about competing, challengers, and my future below.

If you don't want to read all'at, TLDR: I would still like to compete but need to regain my love of the process. While I prepare myself and grind, I will be offering coaching services for supplemental income.

Discord link: https://t.co/2l9SsZbuqM

In the last three years, my decline in the competitive space has been unquestionable and steady.

Coming from tier 1 and being a top player in the region, to being relegated out of challengers has been a truly humbling experience.
I have learned equally as much about my character and myself in my fall from grace as I had in my ascension to it, which I am grateful for, but the rumination accompanying the failures are taxing.

I have come to terms with my failures. I understand them, and I take accountability for them. I have been forced to spend a considerable amount of time seeking introspectively for the reason there has been such drastic change in myself as a player and a competitor.

Throughout the different attempts at tackling every problem I could find about myself as a player, one thing remained constant: I always felt like I was fighting an
uphill battle.

It took a lot of reflection, many good friends, teammates, and mentors for me to realize the truth; I simply have lost my love of the process. This is a difficult reality to face. Losing the very thing that brought me to heights I never thought I could reach is a brutal pill to swallow.

My rise to my peak as a player was supported by the sheer work I put in, but the critical difference is that it never felt like work. I simply loved playing val and cs, and the more hours I sunk the better and better I became. The amount of time I put into the game outside of my team practice has fallen to a minute fraction of what it was when I was at my best.

Despite the problem being clear to me, the reason for it is more complex. I believe a combination of a bad mentality, a feeling of being disconnected from the community, and poor prioritization of my mental health has led me to actively avoid the process of individual grind and improvement that I used to love.

My passion for competition and working with my teammates to improve is still very much alive. I have a strong desire to win and the feeling of winning and achieving new heights with a group of good people is unrivaled.

With all of these factors considered, I have a way forward. I will eventually continue competing as a player, and until then I will be spending some time addressing all of the issues that lead to my aversion of the grind. I plan on building myself back up as a player using the same routines that did it the first time.

I will not be actively seeking any offers for competition until I feel I have successfully reignited the same passion for the grind I once had out of respect for any potential
future teammates. I do not want to be on a roster until I am confident I am the best version of myself, or on a clear path to it.

In the meantime, as I prepare myself for competition, for supplemental income I will be starting a coaching service for both individuals and teams.

I will be looking for only a small number of clients at the moment to iron out the process. Details are in my discord: https://t.co/2l9SsZbuqM

[drone @drone_fps]

Out of challengers.

To call the last two seasons a disappointment would be too kind, they have been an utter disaster from me personally from start to finish.

I’ll be spending the next few days deciding my next steps, whether it be as a player or otherwise. I appreciate those who have continually supported me, and I deeply apologize for the disappointments.

[Peach PRC @peachprc]

sean but it’s short for parmesean cheese

[૮₍˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶₎ა @ashleim1chelle]

@foreknowledged doing the spidey thing

[horse dentist @equine__dentist]

thanks mom

[soph @soph_ran]

@kittenluvr420 ofc send it my way 🫡

[soph @soph_ran]

@kittenluvr420 SLAYYY

[VALORANT Esports NA @valesportsna]

Creative use of the deadlock Annihilation from @drone_fps to get the pick!

#ChallengersNA | @DoughBrosVAL
https://t.co/ZKy7L4BpZx

[soph @soph_ran]

@drone_fps @QorGaming LETS GOOOOOOO

[TaylorMorgan @TaylorMorganS_]

I have never made a more desperate plea that what I am about to say right now. @riotgames @RiotSupport I need you guys to fucking do something. I am an incredibly strong person and I have been streaming for a very, very long time. But absolutely nothing prepares you for someone saying this to you

The suspensions are not enough. Nothing will ever stop these men from acting this way until hardware bans go into play. They should never be able to play the game again

I know you hear us. I know you see us. If this goes unpunished I am taking this as an active act from you that you do not give a single fuck about any of the women and minorities that play your game, and I will rally to boycott. This is just absolutely not on

[Dough Bros @DoughBrosVAL]

We are going through a mandated rebrand.

Post replies with your suggestions for any team name that complies with Riot and Knights rules.

#Deglazed

[kim @KimmyMonte]

not enough rap songs about being lactose intolerant