the way idgaf about ludwig but this is genuinely the funniest thing i've seen a streamer do. the game devs flew his ass to china, made him say shakespearean riddles in a tonal language he does not speak, and didn't pay him. literally did it for the love of the game.
You should study what makes you defensive. The topic you avoid, the joke that irritates you, the question that feels insulting, the feedback you instantly reject. Defensiveness is usually the guard dog sitting in front of a weakness you have not trained yourself to face.