> hi i’m zuked or zuka 🩷🩷 <
i post doodles or ramble. 🧁🌸
all of my art is posted uncensored (elon might mark it as sensitive content tho) and it will contain evil stuff 🪱☹️💗
i don’t tag it so ppl don’t find me 🌞💝🌈
im ✝️ !! god loves me 🦄🦄
im a fucking bum i can’t even attempt correctly all i do is stare at the pills in my hands for like 10 minutes and then just shove them back in the bottle like a loser instead of downing them like im supposed to
ow ow ow i HATE freaking out it makes my heart race and when my heart races everything starts to ache. my back was already hurting bad now it’s worse and i hate it
i should’ve given up on this months ago. why do i have to be so attached to him? why can’t i let go? why do i want to bend my own boundaries so badly just to keep him in my life?
i love him so much why does this keep happening why can’t i keep anyone in my life why does EVERYONE go to this ONE GUY .??? what do i not have that they do. im so much better
no surprises by radiohead has always made me upset but i never fully related to it until now. i set no alarms today, and what’s going on isn’t a surprise anymore. just upsetting
went to sleep with scout leapfrog lullaby music on loop because it helped me sleep as a kid and i woke up to it and woke up to awful messages and it helped me spiral worse 🩷🩷🩷😁 THIS WILL BE WHY I END IT