i don't think i can commit to recovery right now. i thought i was doing better, and i should be doing better since i've been here since 2022, but i just can't handle it rn. i'm probably going to relapse. (but tbh with my commitment issues i might be back here in a week who knows)
my sister convinced me to go to the pool with her tomorrow and on the one hand it's gonna be fun, but that means wearing a swimsuit in public for the first time in years and with the way my body looks idk how i'll feel about that :(( i wanna go to make her happy but im scared
// vent , weight talk
i weighed myself and i know it was a terrible idea but i just couldnt help it,, and im overweight. ive gained like 30 pounds since i started this acc and i don't think i can handle that i wanna be skinny again i'm so so scared
@0101ley i'll try not to think about it too much <3 i guess i'm just worried because i wasn't uw when i started recov and now it's been over a year and i'm technically ow :( idk if it's gonna settle
@emoryisexisting i'm not sure honestly :( i started recov at a healthy weight and now im technically overweight, and it's making me feel like trying to get better wasn't really worth it since i'm less healthy now than i was before i decided to recover. i'm scared that i'm doing everything wrong
good morning everyone :))) im excited to finally be done with most of my graduation stuff - now i have a few days to just relax before i have to go to work again
ever since middle school, i was sure that i wouldn't graduate. i thought i'd either die or drop out. but crazily enough, i made it through high school and i have my diploma to prove it !! i am officially done with school!!! (unless i decide to go to college lol)