Hello my local buddies! <3 itโs nice to actually start over and not to worry about hackers rn. Iโm still hyper vigilant about it but Iโm mostly fine! XD
Main fandoms: YGO, Slime, welcome to the demon school Iruma Kun!, Polar opposites, Flower blooms with dignity
Neurotypicals refuse to understand that IT HURTS
I don't "dislike" loud noises, THEY HURT
I don't "dislike" bright lights, THEY HURT
I don't "dislike" when people ask open-ended questions when I'm overwhelmed, IT FUCKING HURTS !!!
They never believe me. They refuse to open their minds to things they cannot experience themselves. It's always "how can asking a complex question when you're overwhelmed cause genuine pain" and I DON'T KNOW. MAYBE IF RESEARCHERS LISTENED TO AUTISTIC PEOPLE WITH THE GOAL OF UNDERSTANDING RATHER THAN "CURING" US THEN I WOULD HAVE AN ANSWER FOR YOU
My ideal het ships is that it can't be a variation of "she's better than him" as in, no ugly man/hot wife nor nice girl/bad boy.
If he's mean, she's as mean, if he's unconventional, she's as much or more, not dumb double standards, they're flawed in equal ways.
@Louiedaloser I already kinda try to do that but sometimes my anxiety takes a toll on me like: โwait if I know what hurt meโฆ how do I know if it hurt me? Like why? How?โ
So itโs best for me to keep myself busy (like drawing) to not think about my emotions. Itโs hard though, but yeah.
Bear with me this monthโ i found out some news from my dad (my biological parents are divorced) and letโs just say that my stepmom and him are divorcing andโฆ Iโm kinda in a funk.