THIS WHOLE SCENES IS KILLING ME ANJING 😭 like wdym Barth gapunya siapa" buat sandaran, dia nelp rumah CUMA buat denger voice mail ibunya 😭 dia tau ga bakal ada yg angkat, DIA TAU, tapi THATS THE ONLY THING HE HAD AT THE MOMENT karena Tanrak lagi 'balik' 😭
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di ep4 ini tuh banyak yang bikin aku "anjirrr barth greenflag banget🫠". menurut aku salah satunya di scene ini.
dimana barth denger perkataan tanrak ke master phak yang "kalau suatu hari nanti aku harus memilih, aku akan memilih Tuhan di atas segalanya." dia gak marah, dia gak minta penjelasan tanrak. disitu dia langsung ke lapangan buat tenangin pikirannya karena pasti kata2 tanrak kepikiran banget sama barth. dia pendam. bahkan mungkin sampe nahan nangis makanya tangannya neken hidung gitu🥺🫳🏻
sampe scene dimana tanrak lg ngepel, barth nyamperin, tp tanrak malah diemin dia. dan tanrak kaya nunjukin klo mereka masih di depan Tuhan mereka. dan disaat barth bilang "apa kamu mendengar isi kepalamu sendiri?" disitu tanrak malah diem dan tiba2 pergi.
disitu kayanya barth makin mikir tntg perkataan tanrak ke master phak tadi dan mungkim mulai kepikiran 'berarti apapun yg udah kita lewatin bersama, akhirnya bukan aku pilihannya, ya?' semacem gitu lah.
makanya habis itu pas tanrak tiba2 ngomong 'aku gak bisa ngediliin diri aku' disitu barth langsung nanya 'tapi apa kamu bahagia?' karena barth gmau kalo tanrak aslinya gak bahagia kalo lagi sama barth. takutnya tanrak sekedar suka aja deket sama barth tapi gak bahagia. barth takut klo dia udah bikin tanrak banyak pikiran dan jadinya tanrak gak bahagia🥺
barth mastiin kalo tanraknya harus selalu bahagia🥺❤️🩹
GREENFLAG BOY EVER😭🤍
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A half eaten apple, the cross that was placed on their clothes, and their name that was finally carved together.
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☆ That apple reminds me of the apple in Adam and Eve story. It's like a symbolic way of how they gave in to something that was considered as 'forbidden'
☆ The cross. I saw the hesitation in Tanrak's eyes when he took it off. It didn't feel like he removed it simply because he was afraid of losing it. Instead, it was as if guilt was gnawing at him, like if he kept it on, he would feel the heavy weight of God watching him. Taking it off was like the choice to let go of that guilt and judgment
☆ The names on the tree. Carving their names into the tree feels like their permanent vow. As if a physical mark that Tanrak chose Barth, for now. To accompany him, to face the world with him
// I genuinely didn't know what they actually trying to convey, it's just my personal point of view when I saw this