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— It would be a sin, an act of irreverence not to love you.

[🏹 @sseukij]

would you ask about me on your party or am I not relevant enough for you to bother

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maybe as i go about my days with you i’ll still see shadows of the past over your shoulder. and maybe i’ll continue comparing the what ifs for longer than i should, but i know that i’ll choose you anyway, even with the memories i carry with him.

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you’re too scared to hurt the person you like and i’m too scared that i’d continue to see him in you despite all your difference, because all i’ve ever known is him until you

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crashing out bcs unlike with you it’s comfortable, and warm and still a little silly given the situation, but as i spend my days with him i somehow think of you, and all the things we found too awkward to do with each other

[🏹 @sseukij]

reach out anyway.

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And i’m sorry I lied to you, I didn’t actually know about wicked before you started talking about it on your stories :) i went with you then because I wanted to watch a movie with you. I know we said we’d watch the second part together, but it seems neither of us are willing to +

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I won’t be the same by the time the second movie comes out, and neither will you. But we’ll still enjoy, because it’s a movie we’ve been excited about for so long. You’ll be watching with our friends, and i’ll introduce the movie to my college friends like you introduced it to me

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I never realized, but it’s past a year :) I had resolved myself into finally moving on, and after nearly three years of loving you, and then not loving you, and the realizing the love i felt for you never truly left, I’m confident to say i’ve really moved on this time.

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in reality despite having these myriads of people that i consider to have a crush on i know for myself that there’s really only one person i will like, atleast right now

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I had no one else to watch it with. They won’t know that you called me for an hour and a half because i fell asleep and you (probably) thought i ghosted you, or that we didn’t get a good picture of the title screen at the credits because we got distracted

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You will never see this, but I hope that
you will one day live without being burdened by the expectations of others. I hope that one day you become content with yourself, to no longer be insecure. I hope you can rest without having to worry about failing.

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I’m sorry if i came out as rude to you and I didn’t mean to make you feel bad about yourself, it’s just that i’ve never been one to comfort other people, and i’ve always been brought up on tough love. I’m awkward and most times i don’t really know what to say, but to me you’ll+

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roles; you are bright even with ten missed assignments and failed exams. You may think that your worth is measured by your academics, but the way your heart shines and your passion for everything that you do will always be far more amazing to me than every academic achievement.

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hesitated in your treatment because of money, and because we were scared to lose you sooner. You fought a long and hard battle these past few months, so rest well over the rainbow :) i love you, i’ll see you soon.

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in truth, im way too much of a private person to ever grieve in front of people, but as someone who was been with me for the past five years, i need you to be someone who will be remembered. thank you for all the fun memories you’ve given us, and for silently watching+

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over me as I study long into the evening. I may not say it often but i love u sm bb. i’m so happy i chose u in that litter during the pandemic, and im so happy i got to make memories with you. Im so sorry ate isn’t smart enough to know how to help you, and im so sorry we+

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kelan b aalis si mama gusto ko na umiyak