mei hi sawal, mei hi jawab
mei hi hakikat, mei hi khwab
shor bhi hai mujhme, khamoshi bhi
kabhi hun galat, toh hun kabhi sahi bhi
andhera hai agar, toh hai roshni bhi khudse hi
dar hai jo andar, himmat bhi mujhme hi
mei hi mushkil, mei hi hal
mei hi hun aaj mei, mei hi thi kal
at the end of the day you have to make peace with the fact that you're on your own.. nobody stays.. not the ones you stayed up listening to till 2am, not the ones who made promises of always and forever, not the ones who said they'll never let you go..
I hate how movies make friendships look so effortless.. people just show up, stay, understand, know what you need… but real life is messy, everyone's tired/busy/fighting their own battles… & you're left needing people who just don't have the time, energy or capacity to be there
and maybe that's the cruel part… you understand it all.. the busy schedules, the emotional exhaustion, the way life pulls everyone in different directions… & still you get hurt
because no amount of understanding can turn off the part of you that just wants someone to stay
@sidstfuffs I posted one of my substack article that I wrote when I was utterly depressed on insta and deactivate my account the next day, it's been 6 months ig and I still can't open it :')
little brother is having this stupid crush and all he can talk about is her... it's adorable but I swear I'll lose my mind if I hear her name one more time!!
Bad news: depression made me lose time I can't get back & versions of me I can't fully return to… blurred years into something I can barely remember, left me stuck in loops I didn't know how to break..
Good news: I'm still here and I can rebuild... one step at a time.