Wake up at 5 am fall back asleep wake up at 10 am fall back asleep wake up at 3 think shit I should get up and do something today gets dressed falls back asleep for another hour
The blame is shared as is the sadness im sure this is what losing my temper does just fuck it all up I miss the days where I wasn’t afraid to talk to you for fear my words be twisted and my intentions warped I miss the days where we would communicate I miss what we had before
Just seeing you breaks my heart all over again I know the decision was what was best but it doesn’t make it easier by heart hurts alls I need is time and good people
Im angry and I’m sad I just wanna give up I feel like The life I live is not the life I love time to learn to love myself and go from there no more isolating myself from the people I love no more staying out of the way time to do the things I want to do and be proud of myself
I’m not gonna tell you what to do to fix your behavior I told you where my issues were how is that not enough I can’t get inside your brain and tell you how to not be inconsiderate
Im the asshole for wanting help im the asshole for asking for help im the asshole for speaking my mind and don’t forget im the asshole for having the conversation at a time where it’s gonna ruin both our days fuck this I’m done