nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between “things will get better” and “i can’t handle this anymore.” it’s like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day
I’ve removed “they wouldn’t do me like that” from my thought process, because they will do you exactly how you thought they wouldn’t. I had to learn not everybody got the same heart as me. Just because I’m solid with somebody don’t mean they solid with me. I had to stop expecting myself out of people, stop thinking the way I love means they’ll love me the same. Some folks only loyal when it’s convenient, only genuine when it benefits them. And once you see that for what it is, you stop allowing people to come back around, you stop overplaying your part, and you stop giving more than you receive. Once you’re out my life there’s no way back in.
This year forced me to face so many parts of myself and I am left with the realization that you really have to be there for yourself and not expect anyone to understand you.
Even in friendships mind your business. If they don’t tell you, they probably don’t want you to know, or just not yet. You are not entitled to knowing what’s going on at every point in your friend’s life.
I spent 4 years with a man who didn’t care about me… then went back and wasted another 2 years off and on with the same man. And after that, I still tried to make it work for another year with someone who clearly didn’t care. But here’s the real lesson: it took almost 8 years for me to realize I didn’t care about myself. I accomplished nothing during that time because I was too busy chasing love. A lot of people think love will fix them or make them whole, but the truth is—if you don’t love yourself first, you’ll never feel complete
😂😂😂😂😂😂 I have an MD and a PhD 😂😂😂😂 I’m a freaking cardiothoracicsurgeon 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I am supposed to be studying for my BOARDS, the most important exam of my life and I’m 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I’m locked in a 😂😂😂😂 bathroom 😂😂😂 crying 😂😂😂😂 because of a boy! 😂😂