remi {6/36❥

hw 227 | cw 165 | new gw 135 | ugw 98 | top surgery 10/2022 + bipolar II | transphobes dni 🖤

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

went to a wedding last week and im still fat but also my loose skin on my arms has genuinely been ruining my brain recently like i feel sick looking at myself and my proportions and my face

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

also im getting into yoga and i still have my headstand from when i did high school dance lol

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

i think my brain is finally back on track and i can actually starve again like i think i can be pretty this time

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

the way that my second and third assaults were predated by months months months long attention and touching and grooming to make me think i was the one overreacting and reading too into what they were doing bc i was worried i was having a hashtag all men are bad moment

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

coming to terms with being sexually assaulted for a third fucking time in my life last summer by a man older than my father 😝 totally fine not freaking out not hurting myself not feeling sick not rethinking my whole life

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

still fat ! but i am running now and have my first 10k at the end of the month!

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

left is pic that made everything go downhill for me but at least i dont look like that anymore. wish i’ve changed more tho.

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

OFFICIALLY have lost 60 lbs as of today! sw 227 today im 167!

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

my friend from college posted the first pic from spring 2023 at 230lbs and i literally gasped. 1 i was fucking huge 2 why did no one tell me how bad it looked like i had no pants on??

compared to full body pics of me at 185lbs (i tried to find ones closer to 170 and couldnt) wtf

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

i moved ! my dad had a heart attack ! im sitting around 175lb now, but i start back with strict diet and getting back into running this week.

i started a new job in fine dining and have been working in an arts studio ! life is going to be better !

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

going through my tagged pics on insta .. first was hw in 2022/pre top surgery other two were on my birthday last month … my brain actually cant comprehend that i looked like that like i feel so fat now how tf did i weigh 60 more lbs at one point

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

some of my recents, now that i feel like ive begun building back up my stamina im gonna start incorporating weights and pilates back in ❤️

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

bc and i got my nape tattooed the other day

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

everything ive spent the past 4 months working towards ended with rejection letters and the only silver lining i can find is the sadness makes starving easier

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

im back 🫡 im going to a wedding at the end of may i need to lock tf back in

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

got an abnormal scan back at my obgyn appointment! getting screened for cervical cancer! happy 2025!

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

got my stomach tattooed today! going back in a for weeks to get the other side done. trying to make myself like my body more.

[remi {6/36❥ @stagedhaunting]

ive been having parties like crazy so im up a lil weight and to make myself feel better i look back on my list of people who’ve commented on my weightloss lol

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