Social media has normalized treating others as disposable playthings, ready to unadd/block over minor inconveniences, or once your "usefulness" has worn out, and I hate it
A specific problem with being ugly is that you can't pull a silly face in photos because you genuinely look vomit-worthy but you can't lock in and serve face either because you have no face to serve
stainedglass = stained glass as in the thing itself and as in dirty and brittle
Kris = from deltarune, started using it as nick in 2019, then stuck as my real name
binary lodestar (pen name) = initially got from binary stars, added lodestar as a related "last name" later
I adored my friend group and now they all think I'm a monster.
Now knowing that it's quite literally because they horribly misunderstood something I said and went to blocking and isolating instead of asking me to clarify, I barely want to be alive still.