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they/them || 25 || here we go again || minors dni please || audhd and chronically ill || married!

[a! @starisucceeding]

losing it (not the weight)

[a! @starisucceeding]

the medication weight gain is gaining and I’m overwhelmed

[a! @starisucceeding]

realizing that theres only a month until the rope conference and im the heaviest ive ever been and theres nothing i can do about it except go and be miserable in this lump of fat

[• يمنى♡• @yumnah_elkhabir]

wait... no wayyy

[mouse♡ @pr4ttyskinny]

oh!

[a! @starisucceeding]

Also I’m in EMDR (have been for ~3mnths now) and my brain friends are really getting more and more active and distinct and I don’t remember things so well and my wife has been noticing different versions of me and giving me nicknames and uh I think I have a dissociative disorder

[a! @starisucceeding]

Wow I love talking into the abyss is anyone in here???

[a! @starisucceeding]

I love my spouse so unbelievably much and I know they want what’s best for me and my food behaviors freak them out and I am. still. like this

[꩜ @faeslily]

me too, clarice lispector

[a! @starisucceeding]

Shout out to my spouse knowing my pattern recognition too well and making sure to tell me specifically that they prefer my body type to the specific body of the person they were with when they broke our agreements - this was about to break me the fuck down omfg

[ANTLER ★ @antlerblade]

"Don't use your trauma like that..." DO YOU WANNA FUCK TWO BAD BITCHES AT ONCE OR NOT .

[a! @starisucceeding]

Anyway new lock in rules, one solid meal a day and liquid diet (coffee w/ sf creamer, tea, water, etc) until then. I immediately have to break this rule like. tomorrow because I get to go visit my wife but it’s my plan for every day I’m not with her

[a! @starisucceeding]

You only say you like me as Bouba because we’ve never had a chance to see what I’d be like as Kiki :( because I keep fucking rUINING IT

[a! @starisucceeding]

It’s so healing for the part of me that wants to recover to hear this (after years of partners shaming me for not matching their physique) but the rest of me is like. gnawing on her.

[a! @starisucceeding]

If my wife were any less genuine about the Bouba and Kiki thing i would literally turn myself inside omfg assigned blob by spouse

[a! @starisucceeding]

my wife talking about attraction and how much they love softer curvier bodies and how the wat we fit together is perfect because I’m the Bouba to their Kiki - and they mean it so genuinely I know they prefer me at a heavier weight but gods I feel so gross

[a! @starisucceeding]

@basedrexic my wife would n e v e r but gods it helps to imagine stuff like this in their voice omfg

[a! @starisucceeding]

@lou_star_ves Proud of you!! Be safe!!