enni relapse

edrtwt ☆ 25 ☆ sw: too high ☆ gw: 125, 110 ugw: 100

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

@emptyconverser needed this on my feed this morning. hugs🫶🏼

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

i don’t even want to be eating as much as i do i only HAVE to because my roommate and bf know about my history and cant have them catch on till i lose a significant amount UGH i cannot believe this is my life

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

just remembered my scale predictor said id be 1.4lbs lower by today yeah what if i kms

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

scale .6lbs higher than Friday morning im actually devastated i cant imagine its more than water weight but i’ve successfully lost for 2 weeks straight im such a chud i was supposed to be closer to my halloween gw today fml fml fml

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

had a lowkey beautiful weekend with my bf and friends and then remembered today ive lost 12lbs and im so fat no one’s even noticed so basically theres no stopping this restriction until i feel confident again

[saanjh 🔮 @dontcrysaanjh]

trying to manage an eating disorder when you have a life and people who love you is genuinely a herculean task

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

had pizza and wine and apple pie with my bf last night like a normal person and he wants to have a picnic today and he just loves me so much im gonna try really hard to remember time with him is worth it, the weight WILL be lost eventually aghhhh

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

roomie not home so i got to omad my lunch🤗did a 3.5mile walk for dinner instead lol nervy for my weigh in tmr aghh

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

ordered my halloween costume last night and got everything in an M just in case🙃but just put on an M skirt i got this summer and its so loose ugh i really hope my costume isnt TOO baggy (altho i also hope it is for wl sake)

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

on my period and been constipated for days😐just hoping whenever i do weigh myself (probably friday) its a new low

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

can’t stop thinking about how my 40hr was fast was so much easier than expected i kept freaking myself out that maybe i ate and forgot idk after that 28ish hour mark the hunger just went away and my energy levels shot up i only broke it cuz i hAve to eat lunch around coworkers😭

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

dont even have halloween plans but im 3.8lbs away from my halloween gw yippee i love locktober

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

had such unbelievable insomnia probably from my fast but the weird thing is im not even hungry at all😭new low weight as of this morning tho so, worth it

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

successfully fastest all day even with my roommate home🥳this will probably never happen again lol but im so happy i really needed that after this weekend gah

[Scott of ed/gymtwt 🍫🤍 @gymtar0]

thinking I won't get the side effects of starving myself cuz I'm 'built different'

[kitty ⋆🐾° (-10 kg / 16 kg) @dizzykwtty]

My toxic trait is that my response to anything negative happening in my life is to eat less even if it isn’t related to my appearance or weight

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

feeling so depressed that restriction/fasting isnt even hard at all🤩

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

2500c consumed yesterday if not more, massive fight with my best friend and really emotional day with my bf. stellar weekend fr🤩😝i feel like im having a mental health crisis but hey at least restriction will be easy as pie this week

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

im out of 130 jail😭😭im SO HAPPY loctober is really working if i keep going i think i can get to my first gw by halloween ahh i missed this high

[enni relapse @starmagnetic1]

bought my coworker coffee and she asked for a ham n cheese croissant. it was so warm and smelled so good i can’t believe there was a time id have one regularly. clearly how i got so fat😵‍💫but at least discovered a new 40cal order i loved!