star ☆ edtwt

he/they | 22 | adhd, fueled by caffeine | hw: 79 ; cw: 62 ; gw: 55 ; ugw 45

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malespo i found on tumblr ;
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non edtwt dni !!

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@lsdbunnie @nitemaregrrrl would've guessed 60 max but i'm also bad at guessing ..

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i smoked a sevenstar cigarette today. and i got a second one .. but i think i'll smoke it when i feel like skinny enough .. to deserve it ..

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@moonieT04 why does it look like that i hate this

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i'm trying to like ignore these silly disordered thoughts so hard rn like i try. i just try my best to eat as much calories as i can before i'm full ,,

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i'm kinda omading atm everyday, but not really cause i want to but cause i'm stressed & on my meds 90% of the time ,, i can barely eat a full portion of something, and still i'm. not losing. any weight. i gained weight since my last lowest weight and ngl i grrr aaaAAA

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#käsebrottwt was ist mit magerquarktwt passiert 🫪

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@nisecals vielen dank 😞 mögest du niemals eine nussallergie in kombi mit deinem heuschnupfen entwickeln

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@nisecals ja fair enough aber ich hab halt beides 💀

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@nisecals indeed ,, bin deswegen allergisch auf haselnüsse. das schließt auch sowas wie hanuta und bueno und knoppers und so mit ein
ich würds nich empfehlen

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so i had 2 days in a row now where i barely ate anything cause i had no food at home . i gained (!!!) like 2kg. how. how the fuck.

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i'm in a seminar for mental disorders and all that and our topic just now was EDs and we had to do a stupid raisin eating task which is supposed to HELP people with eds ,, instead it triggered me. awsom.

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why is jt not going away

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@the8kcals lowkey früher fand ich den richtig geil, und dann hatte ich halt eine phase wo ich dauernd krank war und seitdem kann ich den nicht mehr trinken

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why do i still obsess over my weight i hate this

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like this was my last week & last 7 days also at 9k at least how the fuck did i GAIN 5 kg, but i maintained when i was at 4-5k average

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ik starting to count again won't make it better but i feel like that's the only way i can control shit because apparently i've lost the ability to estimate how much i should eat and if that's a normal amount

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my necj is so stiff

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my whole body hurts