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[lele @starrylele]

first chenle now mark.. jisung i swear to fucking god don’t do ANYTHING

[lele @starrylele]

oh fuck

[haebin @hhaefull]

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my cool cat 🐈‍⬛ ⛓️

#종섭 #피원하모니 #JONGSEOB #P1HARMONY

[lele @starrylele]

i cant readily travel to see any of my friends and it makes me feel so sad.. like it’s already going to be difficult to see friends in another state and now i have two friends in europe to see.. how the FUCK am
i going to manage that

[lele @starrylele]

i try not to be dry when she texts so it’ll encourage her to be more open and excited with me but like idk i feel like history is platonically repeating itself and i think i’d fall into the worst depressive episode i’ve ever had if i lose her as a friend

[lele @starrylele]

i also want to talk about my biases with her and vice versa but any time i initiate conversation 9tkmes out if 10 i’m met with dryness and idk if it’s bc she’s still stressed with work/school or not but it’s really discouraging so i stay silent

[lele @starrylele]

i feel traumatized lowkey bc if she doesn’t text after she wakes up my mind immediately jumps to “shit she’s mad at me” and i start to think about all of the things i said and if they made her upset and i don’t feel relief until she texts

[lele @starrylele]

if you see this i still feel bad. i wish every day that sometimes i’ll wake up to a spam of messages from you about your biases or something that happened at work or content you watched. i want what we had back. i miss you. it still hurts.

[lele @starrylele]

was thinking about this earlier.. we got a little closer but it’s still not the same.. i don’t get fic ideas i don’t get cat pics i feel like i get nothing

[lele @starrylele]

i just really hope that we’re able to get somewhat as close as we were before i royally fucked up bc they deserve so much better than how i treated them when they first came into the fandom

[lele @starrylele]

ik i said i wasn’t jealous of her friend anymore but lowkey i still am bc they seem like they’ve become so much closer since bestie became a p1ece that it makes me regret everything i said at the beginning of everything i should’ve just kept my mouth shut!!

[lele @starrylele]

i feel like i don’t even know them anymore wtf

[lele @starrylele]

fucked up the friendship so bad that even tho they’re giving me another chance it won’t be the same and i felt immensely guilty when i looked at their acc..
am i really that good at making my closest friends feel terrible

[lele @starrylele]

i’m not a bad person i swear i just make bad decisions when i’m jealous.. that doesn’t make me a bad person.. right?
right..?

[lele @starrylele]

@soulmagz @jooanluvbot they got my main @IeIeluv a couple weeks ago and i just found out today💔 i was able to get it back tho!

[yuna @yunarchivez]

yuna, even tho being an idol, being supportive to the lgbt community, a mini thread.

[lele @starrylele]

genuinely crying rn