Never in a million years would I think that my daughters father would be absent through her cancer journey leaving me to do everything myself while everybody else worries about him not knowing heโs choosing to stay away to live his life normally. I hate this so much.
I could give a shit about anybody right now my focus is my daughter, her health and to come to the hospital to disrespect me bc heโs that insensitive and has no morals is so fucking sad. This man canโt even get on his knees to pray to god for healing so whoโs evil here?done.
Not my baby daddy telling me Iโm the reason heโs suicidal bc Iโm โ evil โ but when heโs acting suicidal he bombs my phone and demands for my attention to help him out bc Iโm the only one who understands him WHILE MY DAUGHTER IS IN THE HOSPITAL BED. The audacity & disrespect rn๐ญ
God has a purpose for all of us and we get lost living in this world forgetting that living in sin is only making us take steps back. we will fail and fail and be angry till we realize godโs plan was never to fail but to learn, to grow and become the best versions of ourselves.
People only like you when you prioritize them over yourself, the moment you take a step back to focus on you youโll be the bad friend, the bad family member, the bad person. Never feel bad for choosing yourself when itโs needed and donโt ever beg those who will never understand.
The only time I get to cry is on my drive home to shower and get extra clothes then back to being strong in front of my daughter because I canโt let her see me broken.
Sitting in my car crying and praying while my daughter is getting an MRI to confirm a possible diagnosis and I canโt help and think how strong I need to be for the both of us. Children donโt deserve to go through illness
Itโs a new month and Ava is back with the same symptoms out of nowhere and here goes another sleepless night trying to make sure her pain level is controlled throughout the night ๐ฅบ