When a man doesn't change, it's not confusion; it's a choice. Men change for what they fear losing. If he knows he's hurting you and does nothing, that's your answer. A man who wants you fixes himself without being begged.If he isn't changing,he's already comfortable losing you.
My therapist told me, “No one notices your sadness until it turns into anger, and then you’re the problem. Healing is realizing you became the angry person because no one saw your sadness first” and I felt that.
When you don’t get paid for snow days at a job that wouldn’t be losing money to pay you..it’s just some bullshit…especially when they’ve paid you for snow days in the past. Make it make sense🙄
The avoidant lost YOU. They lost a person who loved without limits. A person who gave their all. A person who truly cared and empathized.
And you lost… what? An empty space in the life of an emotionally unavailable person. Who really lost? THEY. They lost you.
I realized I had to let him go.
He was unbothered watching me lose my mind over his destructive behaviours. I lost myself and realized I was fighting for something that was destroying me. The truth is that he's broken and I wasn't meant to fix or force him to get himself back together. I healed and learned that how people treat you is a reflection of how they feel about themselves and “what you tolerate, you also encourage.”
Never let a person get comfortable with mistreating you. What you tolerate today will be the same things that imprison you tomorrow.
I watched my friend cry in her car for 30 minutes, then walked in my house smiling and joking like nothing even happened. People really be fighting silent battles every day while still showing up and making others smile.
You call her toxic now.
But you met her when she was kind, open, and trusting. Before the lies. Before the betrayal. Before she had to protect herself from you. She became guarded because you kept hurting her.
She became reactive because you kept crossing lines. She became tired because she kept choosing you while you chose yourself. That wasn't toxicity. That was damage.
And expecting her to stay soft after everything you put her through is the real denial. You didn't lose a good woman. You changed her, then blamed her for the result.
You broke her trust, you bruised her heart, and now you're shocked she's not the same person you fell for.
Newsflash: she's not the one who's changed; your perspective has. You're seeing the effects of your actions and calling it her problem.
She's not toxic; she's wounded.
And instead of owning up to the hurt you caused, you're gaslighting her into thinking she's the flawed one.
Own it. You hurt someone who loved you, and now she's protecting herself from further pain.
That's not toxicity; that's self-preservation.
And if you can't see the damage you've done, that's on you.
I grew up walking on eggshells, recognising footsteps, tones. How to tell if someone was in a bad mood and avoid them. I learned to actually study people at a very young age. I’m quiet and observant for a reason. I’ll read you like a book before we even speak
i don't believe in convincing people to choose me. I'm not good at forcing things that should come naturally. i want mutual interest, mutual effort, and mutual respect. if it feels one-sided, i Will notice. and once i notice, i slowly remove myself without making noise about it.
The most dangerous form of self betrayal is pretending to be okay with a man who’s breaking your heart. You think you’re keeping the peace, but you’re really declaring war on your own nervous system.