its not even the materialistic things like i admire how you just continue and you have the motivation to, how people are drawn to you and want to be around you and choose you for even simple things like an invitation, idk what it is about me tho
idk if i was the only one that grew up without and still doesnt have a pc,laptop or anything like that i used to be so jealous of my friends and stuff playing games everyday on these disc chats, j speaking about things i couldnโt relate to