update: ok chat so my ex bf got rly abusive and cheated on me then left me for her and i gained 20ish lbs and got fired so im 193 rn. but im trying to get a job and get back to losing
my bf was hugging me trying to comfort me and all i could think about was him feeling all the fat on my body and being disgusted by me i don’t believe him when he says im perfect and beautiful i feel like a monster