i’ve removed ego and shame from the experience of liking people. me liking someone is my personal decision, but that doesn’t mean they’re obligated to like me back, desire me or act according to my expectations. i don’t see rejection or lack of reciprocity as an attack on my self worth.
and by “shameless,” i mean i’m not carrying embarrassment on my head because i like someone. whether i text first, express interest or end up liking them more than they like me, it is what it is. i’m not going to start acting emotionally detached just to protect pride. i also think people who genuinely find mutual attraction, emotional alignment and timing at the same time are very lucky because it honestly doesn’t happen as easily as people make it seem.
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I had a crush on this guy from secondary school and he shared the same birthdate as my mum. So I never missed it. Every year, I would always dropped heartfelt messages and wishes for him ... alongside my mum. He never did the same for me.
Days later he messaged and was trying to "catch up" with me but I kept my response very curt. Next thing he told me his birthday was weeks ago and I said "Really? I didn't remember" remind me what day again? bro was speechless.
He would always forget mine. Sometimes wished me on a wrong date. I noticed the pattern and decided to do my own back. The next birthday, I turned back on my read receipts on Whatsapp so he'd know I viewed his status and I said nothing. He got no calls nor message from me.