allusive

not sure enough about myself to write anything here

[allusive @struggIes]

bruises are starting to heal up

[allusive @struggIes]

i often fed
off your sense
of well-being

sucking the aura
out of you much
like a leech
watching you feed
off the corpse of my sorrow

[allusive @struggIes]

i would die to be the ache in your desires

the victim of your math class daydreams

someone you would die to call your own

[allusive @struggIes]

mirrors are my reminders that i should never feel confident in the way i look

[allusive @struggIes]

lack of attention

[allusive @struggIes]

i strive for independence more than anyone i have ever met

[allusive @struggIes]

i'm a new face to
a group of
friends since preschool
and i don't think
anything has been
this lonely

[allusive @struggIes]

the phobias of post depression

[allusive @struggIes]

you know it's been a rough night when

[allusive @struggIes]

nobody will ever care what i have to say. only pretend to, if even

[allusive @struggIes]

completely and 100% alone

[allusive @struggIes]

never fucking listened to

[allusive @struggIes]

unstable unable

[allusive @struggIes]

here lies
the girl with blue eyes
who after many years of worrying
is finally
dead

[allusive @struggIes]

my heart races every time i walk by your locker
just in case you may be there with your glowing smirk
reminding me you will never be
mine

[allusive @struggIes]

i hate how i look. i often times imagine scratching my face off and looking a lot prettier than i do now

[allusive @struggIes]

maybe feelings are a bad
thing because they end
in consequence even more
punishing than that time
i cheated on my math
homework in school

[allusive @struggIes]

intoxication is so beautiful you see

[allusive @struggIes]

nobody wants the responsibility of repairing a broken girl