vivi

✩ ° ｡⋆⸜ 🦷🕷️ ## 169cm ,, cw : 44kg , ugw : 42kg

[vivi @strwberygashes]

unpinning at 42kg — 🦷🏹

[vivi @strwberygashes]

idk if this is an autistic thing but after a long day of speaking i struggle with pronouncing words? like i’ll say words wrong or my words will merge together into incoherent sounds even if i know how to say those words?? does anyone else struggle with that

[vivi @strwberygashes]

@AmoFamens 😭😭 tbh it could’ve been his mums/friends but he just acted really weird about it. he didn’t offer an explanation and just kept saying “what you’re actually mad at me?” like i said im choosing to stay ignorant 🫩 esp since the evidence isn’t that crazy, could be explained ig

[vivi @strwberygashes]

he said “you’re gonna think i had another girl here now” well like, yes?! he’s not one to cheat and i can’t imagine him cheating he literally doesn’t even have social media im hoping there’s a simple explanation for this 🫩🫩

[vivi @strwberygashes]

was in the car with my bf, he said he found a pair of WOMENS sunglasses in his car and proceeded to ask me if they were mine. they were in fact, not mine. but idgaf i’m staying ignorant i actually DONT want to know ❤️❤️

[vivi @strwberygashes]

was in the car with my bf, he said he found a pair of WOMENS sunglasses in his car and proceeded to ask me if they were mine. they were in fact, not mine. but idgaf i’m staying ignorant i actually DONT want to know ❤️❤️

[vivi @strwberygashes]

confession i have not weighed myself in months bc i know ive gained and im scared to face what i’ve done ❤️

[vivi @strwberygashes]

@noxeuuuuu better yet if you die mid period… do it keep going until the 5 days r up or does it stop… 🧐🧐

[vivi @strwberygashes]

i stayed up all night cuz of the adrenaline i gave myself LOL my anxiety was so bad and my thoughts were racing so fast i literally felt manic it’s 5:55 and im still shaking ok!!!! 😊‼️‼️

[vivi @strwberygashes]

@camssleeping protein helps you feel full so eating just junk food can lead to binging bc you don’t feel as full. not to mention that 1k cals of junk food is definitely less volume of food than healthy food, so technically you can eat more healthy food for 1k cals if that makes sense.

[vivi @strwberygashes]

@camssleeping technically it’s the same because neither will make you gain and both will have you in a calorie deficit. however the junk food will leave you feeling worse because it lacks nutrients i.e fibre, protein, etc.

[vivi @strwberygashes]

anyone else feeling overly su1c1dal lately or just me ?? and i can’t even cut bc it’s summer like yes ok this is awesome 😹😹🔥 !!!!!

[vivi @strwberygashes]

my bf does this thing where he’ll wake up from a deep sleep start making out with me (i’m always awake cuz he goes to bed first ‼️‼️) and go right back to bed like nothing happened, idk what dat mean but it’s hot 🧐🧐

[vivi @strwberygashes]

i am so exhausted of masking everyday. i just want to be myself but ive kept up this act for so long, i dont even know who i truly am deep down.

[vivi @strwberygashes]

@malouisrunning comments are over estimating so much wtf. no way that pain au chocolat is over 300. bread probs 170-200 hard to tell. and those slices of cheese r tiny imo around 70? ham probs 50. id say 620 to be sure, but it could be anywhere from your estimate-620. <33

[vivi @strwberygashes]

@inkymittens mind you the whole time i’m focused on the cake looking like shit,, why it lowkey look like raw meat doe 🤔🤔

[vivi @strwberygashes]

happiest day of my life i love pigeons was so excited 😭😭

[vivi @strwberygashes]

i never used to get why people glaze dark chocolate but i get it now… it stops me from craving more chocolate whilst fulfilling that craving. this one from ALDI is a perfect middle ground cuz it’s 55% and has yummy crunchy caramel pieces hehe

[vivi @strwberygashes]

like wdym i used to be rewarded for keeping to myself and never causing problems but now everyone thinks im a massive weirdo because i don’t know what to say. i am so exhausted trying to appear normal everyday trying to figure people out and what things to say around them.

[vivi @strwberygashes]

shout out to all the autistic girls that were praised for being quiet as kids cuz it was seen as polite but now being quiet as an adult is seen as being rude and socially awkward

[vivi @strwberygashes]

uk moots!!! home bargains sells nicks protein bars!! they’re like 89p too!

the macros are a bit meh cuz it’s 15g protein for 208cals but they are really yummy

[vivi @strwberygashes]

lowkey gained like 4kg and im feeling awful about it especially since summer is coming up but i know if ive lost it once i can lose it again amen 🧘🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️