Spiritual gifts aren't meant to be curses that tie you down with struggle and pain .They are a symbol of love because you're entrusted with something bigger than yourself. Its entirely up to you to discover your rhythm with your guides and maintain that loving relationship
Trust the plan that your guides have not told you about. Trust that they see what's happening & something is in the works. They will not restore things while you're inside the pain & the dark, they want you to witness the show clearly from a good seat. Trust what you don't know.