This is SO relatable. And I'm going to be a little vulnerable here.
I often feel like My skin has to be perfect, makeup perfect, lashes freshly filled, body fully shaved, and no bloating or puffiness in order to try to make content.
And when I'm filming, I'll typically restart if I fumble verbally *even a little* or if I phrase something in a less than ideal way. I've scrapped SO MANY clips over minor brief "unflattering" details that are just the reality of living in a body. These result in sometimes having 6+ hour filming sessions with nothing to show for them.
With the amount of pressure I put on Myself to achieve perfection in appearance and delivery, it's no surprise I feel hesitant to film at all these days. 😅
How many clips would I be putting out if I could just let go a little??
I'm starting to consciously choose to be more lax because I rationally know this level of scrutiny is not necessary but it's HARD!
I love how easy you've become for Me..
It doesn't matter where I am...
Or what I'm wearing...
You see Me making a movement like this and your mind just automatically assumes I'm hypnotising you.
Maybe I am...
Maybe it wouldn't even matter though, you'd still do everything I want.