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relapsed or something || 17 || bmi 18.1🧁

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

accountability thread until 46kgs 🍨

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

day 4

1200 cals 5k steps i suck

weigh in : 48.1 ive been maintaining for 4 days cant im so useless and lazy 🤣🤣

also had a unpictured lunch of carrots chocolate and crackers

didnt b/p today tho! yay

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

accountability thread until 46kgs 🍨

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

day 3

seriously gotta lock in and stop b/ping

had this for breakfast and the second photo for dinner and then awesome lunch about 1200 cals total

and then b/ped about 1000 cals at 11pm😅 i hate myself so much when does it end

anyway weigh in: 48.1kg
did about 6k steps

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

i’ve had the worst week of my life

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

and like so i can control my obsession with food ? 8;&

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

is anyone else’s ed not really about their body at all anymore ?
mine definitely was when i first developed it and obviously it matters a lot but the main reason i restrict is more because i am so obsessed with food if that makes sense

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

my body doesn’t even matter that much anymore all i care about is food and eating it or restricting it ect ect

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

all i do is think about food, talk about food, look at pictures of food, eat food, throw up food and cry about food

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

this is why i’m fat btw

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

ok tmr plan
soup and bread for dinner and then maybe a rlly dumb silly lunch like a chocolate bar or something

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

ok tmr plan
soup and bread for dinner and then maybe a rlly dumb silly lunch like a chocolate bar or something

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

i want chocolate so bad

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

i should probably eat more proiten

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

i am becoming addicted to b/ping again why did i relapse why is my brain like this why can’t i just be happy in my body

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

sigh i’m fat and gross and

[𝜗𝜚 Violet @tinypinkrose]

explaining that I can’t eat food with oil but I can eat 5k cals worth of desserts in one sitting

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

@M1h4Luv @rxzerb1ade i mean over a month long period of binging everyday
obviously i know this but i was actively binging 1000-4000 calories every night and only used a combination of laxatives to purge
i’m not trying to promote it obviously im just detailing my experience

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

i’m such a big fat faker

[gigi 🧁 @sugarcakecals]

@kviirzc i’m bmi 18.1 and you look MUCH smaller than me you look like bmi 15–16 seriously