Sick to fucking death of giving an inch only for it to be taken a mile all the fucking time!! Sick of having the piss taken out of me yet a fucking gain. Fucking joke ๐ก
Feel so stressed out today ๐ honestly finding it hard to remember to do things, keep on top of the washing, dishwasher, everything else, keep everyone happy whilst Iโm over here drowning in housework that only I seem to be capable of doing ๐ living the dream ๐คฃ
Can guarantee no matter what I say or do, Iโm almost always in the wrong, no matter how hard I try itโs almost always in vain. Genuinely cannot even think about myself in the slightest little bit ๐
Iโm so out of sorts right now ๐ฃ sick of feeling like a failure, sick of feeling like Iโve let people down, sick of being made to feel as though everything that goes wrong is my god damn fault when itโs not. Iโm sick of everything ๐ซฉ
Today has undeniably been one of the hardest days Iโve gone through in a while, all I need/needed is to just sit down, have a hug and a bloody good cry (again) Instead Iโm now sat on my own overthinking shit. This is what dreams are made of ey ๐ ๐คท๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝโโ๏ธ
I AM NOT FUCKING LAZY.
I am burnt out, overstimulated, and have been carrying emotional loads for YEARS that no oneโs ever helped me hold.. IโM TIRED.
No wonder my stomachs bad again, constantly in survival/flight mode at the moment ๐ no one even knows, no one cares to know, no one makes the effort to know ๐คท๐ผโโ๏ธ
Physically and mentally exhausted on top of being overwhelmed and overstimulated just really is not the one, could do without feeling like this but hey ho, we move ๐