nic

19 - a4a
cw: 95.6 lbs (43.4 kg)
gw: 88 lbs (40 kg)
ugw: 73 lbs (33 kg)

current deficit ceiling: 1117 kcal
daily average: ~900 kcal

BMI: 19.3 (average)

[nic @surviay]

I experience a PTSD-related condition that affects how I relate to religion. As part of this, I have a tulpa-like deity that I call "My Angelic." I express my devotion to her through strict ascetic practices, including restricting food. This practice predates any ED. (Me ⬇️

[nic @surviay]

I love being an adult with my own money I can look at the calories and stand in the protein isle of the store all I want :) #edrtwtㅤ

[nic @surviay]

@saestries @rosieunicorns I have a brand (higher harvest) and it’s 30 cals for one toast. I make >90 cals French toast from them.

[nic @surviay]

Splurged and got a box, lunch for the next 4 days (о´∀`о) these are so good, they taste like protein powder and cardboard.

[nic @surviay]

I think one of the largest differences between ortho and ana (other than nutrient focus, of course) is that ana compulsively wants to get skinnier, to the point of bones. For an ortho, that’s a phobia. I’m definitely afraid of losing control and letting it get to that point.

[nic @surviay]

@Lylylimia Best thing to say is that it is addictive and will rob you of all your best moments.

[nic @surviay]

@ISortofLikeThin lol, if you want to, though my page is pretty boring rn. I’m still getting used to Twitter, so I hope to be more interesting soon :,)

[nic @surviay]

@hopelesslymi Well, I’m glad you got treatment for being psychotic. If you have insurance like that, you can check your body for your daily calorie burn and just eat at BMR with less restriction.

[nic @surviay]

@mouseisventing The way people experience toxic coping mechanisms is going to be different for the individual. Some, it’s their biggest struggle. Others, it’s their biggest comfort. I’m sorry it’s terrible for you, but you know. That’s for you.

[nic @surviay]

@13be9ches If you do it while standing or pacing, you could honestly be considered lightly active

[nic @surviay]

@iclaim30kg Throughout*

[nic @surviay]

@iclaim30kg Because you’re… not eating enough during the day? Honestly is you jsut properly distribute cals throuu go both the day you would have the same deficit with much less pain and stress

[nic @surviay]

@saestries @rosieunicorns Keto toast, 2 slices is already practically daily needs

[nic @surviay]

@rosieunicorns Orthorexics been saying ts

[nic @surviay]

@m11rar00 It doesn’t matter as long as you don’t show the thoughts on your face or actions.

[nic @surviay]

@lacehymn3 Improve your sleep hygiene. No food 2 hours before bed, no snacking on the bed or in the bedroom, no phone use on the bed. Sleep early, at 10 PM, and wake early, 9 AM (adjust to what makes you feel best.) Don’t snack period, it’s not worth it.

[nic @surviay]

@lacehymn3 Don’t buy snacks, just don’t keep them around. If you start feeling snacking late at night, drink some water, go to sleep. If you can’t fall asleep due to food noise, knock back some non-habit forming sleeping pills. The next day, eat a high fiber high protein dinner to feel full

[nic @surviay]

Wait I’ve never spent the holidays caring about my food wym I’m actually going to have to track the cals of a pumpkin spice cookie :((

[nic @surviay]

@gingerapplelem Plateau, just be patient. The scale won’t move for a while and then it will dramatically drop. Don’t do any drastic changes, as long as you are on a moderate deficit, you will lose.

[nic @surviay]

@paulmccalories I just eat them as my meal. Love em.

[nic @surviay]

@lanadelhungry It’s because you’re not eating filling, satiating breakfasts then wondering why you’re ravenous later. Eat a high protein, high fiber breakfast, with some non-saturated fat. If you know you binge at night, eat filling lunch too. Then you won’t spiral later in the day.