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ੈ✩‧₊˚ cutesy food diary 🍥

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wait

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lowest i’ve been without lax so let’s see if i can beat it tn!

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also literally went from 104~105ish to 100 without lax who clapped but also i relapsed on friday and had a bad weekend but bad weekend don’t mean bad life i must stay consistent!

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lowkey plateaued at 100 imma lock in and lose more but i gotta lower intake even more ughhh

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pretty again who clapped

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yummy

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genuinely didn’t eat a lot today, fruit, yogurt, pho & then overate on this cinnamon donut but like it shouldn’t be THAT bad but my brain is saying take laxative 😔 i’ve done it every other day for a week i must push forward

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genuinely wasted this whole week being fat but also i’m pmsing so maybe my body will regulate but ugh

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august —>>> now

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do i look small ☹️

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quitting lax abuse starting tmrw ,, any suggestions?
for reference i’ve built my tolerance up to 75mg of ducolax, but wained down to only 25-30mg. also my digestive system still is functioning normally & i take lax 1-2 times a week

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i just wanna be my lw

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lowkey thankful i said stuff like this bc my ed brain is so dumb i forgot & thought it just started happening

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lax abuse = being a super low weight day of & gaining back the water weight the next day 😭

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having friends while having an ed means starving before a hangout so you can eat in front of them to seem normal

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wrote my college essay on my ed & sharing it tmrw in a room full of people and i think one of them also has an ed but oh well!

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fav wl method to flush water weight for me is to eat low cal and excersise a bunch then take lax like alwayssss hit a lw after bc my body tries to cling onto water and im like oh no you dont!!!