ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive

#shedtwt
bmf i follow back

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

haii this is my introduction oml ts so awkward this is my first time ever posting on twt

my name is ren, im super cool trust, im 14-16, i started sh when i was 11, ive had a small ed since i was around 11/12

im super nice💔 i swear im js awkward

BMFF pls i follow back
#shtwt

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

the situation that happened with my gf today makes me feel horrible and is weighing heavily on my chest, if I had just did it then maybe she wouldnt have gotten sad

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

sorry to my gf for dealing with me

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

I really want to end my life but my gf will be upset, everytime I go to, I feel guilty and then dont but its like how much longer can I take all of this?

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

FUUCKK I forgot, what if my mom checks my thigh and there's like 50 new scars

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

i hate how insecure and ugly I am bc I cant take pictures and send them to her

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

im sorry for everything

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

my gf prob hates me

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

I think im genuinely the worst partner ever

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

omfg I forgot how bad cutting hurts after im going to kms my thigh is basically paralyzed

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

i wish I was skinnier

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

perfect bandages

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

yay another big styro im so happy im able to cut deep again

i hate valentines day

#shtwt #shedtwt #slittwt

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

ignore my ugly stretch marks ik im fat

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

MY CUTS JUST REOPENED AND STARTED SPILLING BLOOD EVERYWHERE

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

im walking around with a limp bc my cuts

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

I think my gf is going to leave me soon or smth

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

my gf keeps accidently guilt tripping me and it reminds me of my parents so I try so hard not to scream and split on her bc shes not doing it on purpose.. but stilllll....

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

how am I going to have an ed and be fat.. i deadass have stretch marks and the baggy jeans I bought in august dont fit around my hips/thighs anymore.. and look tight.

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

the blood looks so YUMMY

[ren / the rika kawai of shedtwt / semi inactive @switchbladeren]

FINALLY im able to do styros again

[patrys @patrysmewww]

i hate that im a jealous bitch