when you realize you've never been put first your whole life, you're just the person who fills the void in people's lives until they don't need you anymore
it's unfair how people who traumatize you get to move on and progress with their life so casually and carefree while you're healing and relearning all the basics just to feel human again..
CAN’T WAIT TO MOVE INTO A SIMPLE APARTMENT WITH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND FALL ASLEEP AND WAKE UP NEXT TO THEM AND COOK DINNER WITH THEM AND HAVE RANDOM MIDNIGHT TRIPS AND STAY UP LATE PLAYING VIDEO GAMES OR WATCHING MOVIES AND BEING ABLE TO SHARE EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE WITH THEM.
Hardest pill to swallow is realizing people do not care. They’ll hurt you & really go on about their lives. Not even slightly affected about what they did to you & how you feel. Regardless if it’s friendships, relationships, or family.
but i know how blessed i was to have them at those times. im so thankful to the people still with me and the ones who no longer are. looking back can hurt but im so glad of the things i got to experience.
we’re about to enter 2026 & i just went through a lot of old photos seeing so many people who used to be the biggest parts of my life. i’ve been left with no explinations, stabbed in the back, was friends with a girl who is well on her way to prison…