Unfortunately, I have to admit that I've not done my best. My current situation is a direct consequence of my incompetence. I suck at doing this life thing.
It sucks because, for a moment, I was genuinely happy. For a moment, I felt like I was getting better, like maybe things were finally starting to make sense again. For a moment, I had hope. And then somehow, in the blink of an eye, it all slipped away again. I hate how quickly you can go from feeling okay to wondering how you got back here.