When I say "ok" I dont mean a measly 50k in a trust fund.
I mean 25million dollars per person, a private plane per person, private security teams per person.
I mean genuinely SAFE FOREVER.
When the days were darkest I would remind myself:
Absolutely everybody I love is taken care of.
It doesnt matter if they kill me.
Everyone I love will be ok forever.
If you vanished today, what would happen to those you swore to protect?
Do you understand?
Since last year ive been in 24 hour lockdown. No yard time.
Pacing a 3metre cell with zero electronics or outside contact. Absolute clarity of mind. Real thoughts. Real plans.
Vivid pain.
One hour home and I cant stand my phone.
Some habits die hard.
We must defeat Shaytan.
I prepare my body to absorb the brutal kinetics of piercing lead
As all other silencing attempts fail, and stage 3 approaches - I anticipate a bullet will be the chosen utensil of pacification
I can only pray and prepare
I will force myself to breathe the best I can
I promise